How dare you! Don't hate me because I am beautiful

Someday Tyler someday you will be a teeth model and they will all bow down to your shiney teeth. Now when was that dentist appointment again. Spa days for my teeth are the best.

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IHOP has Nutella crepes god bless America.

// ARE YOU SERIOUS!?

…I doubt Jim or Joe will even read my letter to them

First of all please forgive me for having to combine this in one letter but considering what happened to the two of you together I thought it would be best to write to you two together.  I told people I was going to New York but that was not true. I went to get help. Sitting back and looking over all that has happened in these last few months I had come to the realization that I did not like how cold and angry I had become. I have always been a bit bitchy but the me that I was when I left was ten times more bitchy than I should have been. I apologize for that and even more so I apologize for all that happened to you because I decided to reach for something that was foolish. Had I not then got myself real therapy instead of the quack I now realize I had been seeing then perhaps I wouldn’t have tried to end my life that night and none of the horror that happened to you because of me would have happened.

There is nothing I can say or do that will ever change or make what happened better. I do not think nor expect that you will ever forgive me either. I just wish it to be clear now that I am sorry for all that happened. It may not matter to either of you but I am trying to become a happier person again. I am tired of being filled with so much anger and hurt and I can only hope all of this will work. Perhaps someday when I am back I hope we can be on speaking terms again. I dare not hold any hopes for friendship because I know I have no right to it.

I wish you two the best in your lives together and I also wish you a happy marriage. I am sure it will be a beautiful and touching affair. I hope you have a long and happy life together.

With well wishes and blessings your once friend and castmate,

Tyler

So I am not in New York like I had it be known. I went to get some therapy because I wasn’t someone even I liked anymore. Sure I have always been a bit bitchy but haven’t we all still in the last few months I realized I wasn’t happy so I was lashing out. I am getting help now though and as part of my therapy I have been told to write to those I have hurt. You were pretty high up on the list because I wager you are the most recent.

Sorry does not really do anything I know but I do wish to express my apologies. You are well in your rights not to forgive me but I wanted to at least say my peace. I hope for you and your child/children only the best and I think you are lucky that you get to have this life together with Darren. He is a good man a fact I know well considering he was there with me in my darkest days. I sincerely hope you can be happy and don’t let the others get you down. I am working towards my own happiness as I write this and know only to well it wont be easy when I get back.

I have never been to good at building things and none of us are that prone to forgive. I guess if bridges are burned I will have to take up boating. I miss my friends and only hope that I can reach them again.

With sincere well wishes and congratulations your friend,

Tyler

Well she got what she always wanted. Bet she will be happier then a pig in mud. Fuck me I am glad I am going away now. I couldn’t deal with the smug that bitch will be flashing.Hmm I bet some shrink will say that thought wasn’t healthy oh well thats why I pay them the big bucks.

Well fuck me….that’s two weddings I wont be getting to go to now. I won’t ever even have one of my own and I get myself socially banned from others. Way to fucking go.

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omghowdareyou:

Tyler looked out at Chicago one last time sighing before he looks down at the last picture he had taken with everyone one last time. Getting into the van he sits down and heads towards the airport sending one last text out.

Text @ Darren Going away for awhile to get better. I am not a happy and healthy person. I am not Brunsman I know I am not but I think because others see me that way it is making me turn hateful. I told others I am going to New York but I am only telling you the truth cause I think only you might care or understood. I have burnt all my bridges with the others sadly. I love you and will miss you Darren but I hope I come back as someone you would openly call a friend. With love Tyler.

Text: My place will always be there to welcome you back home buddy. I’m glad you are getting the help. Its worth it. I guess since you’re leaving I am going to tell you this now…Me and Lauren are back together. So. I hope you return in time for the wedding. I do plan on marrying this girl.

Text: Oh wow. Congratulations. I don’t think I will make the wedding though because me being there would bother to many. It would ruin the day and I wouldn’t want that.

Tyler’s heart was breaking because he knew even if he died and came back an angel the one last friend he felt he had he would loose as soon as he was married to Lauren. Lauren hated him and perhaps rightfully perhaps not but either way it wouldn’t be fair to put Darren in that spot.

Tyler looked out at Chicago one last time sighing before he looks down at the last picture he had taken with everyone one last time. Getting into the van he sits down and heads towards the airport sending one last text out.

Text @ Darren Going away for awhile to get better. I am not a happy and healthy person. I am not Brunsman I know I am not but I think because others see me that way it is making me turn hateful. I told others I am going to New York but I am only telling you the truth cause I think only you might care or understood. I have burnt all my bridges with the others sadly. I love you and will miss you Darren but I hope I come back as someone you would openly call a friend. With love Tyler.